So I need to be careful because I'm can see myself starting to substitute other sites in for what I use to do with Facebook. Twitter is getting familiar. Google+ is even looking appealing. I've got points in the day where I can feel myself getting twitchy, wondering what's going on on my page. You know how they say when someone is trying to quit smoking, they have to relearn how to do everyday things again because they are so use to doing it with a cigarette? I kinda feel like that's me to a point right now. I've gotten into such habits with checking Facebook when I get up in the morning and before I go to bed. When I leave someplace, I'll check it on my phone. Need to rework those habits. Now that I recognize what I'm doing I can stop it before I start. CONSTANT VIGILANCE! :-P
Realizing this though made me recognize how much I distract myself with what others are doing. As they say in all of your acting classes..."stay in the moment"...and I haven't been. I've been letting all of these extraneous little things take my focus away from the tasks at hand.
I've gotten into the bad habit of watching others and taking my cues from them on how and when to do things. Have you ever had those moments where you feel like everyone else has had a class or read a handbook on how to be a grown up or how to make relationships work or how to get the job that you somehow missed? I feel like that has been me lately. But thinking back now, it might have been like that because I was so focused on what everyone else was doing instead of focusing on improving myself and moving myself forward.
Despite my twitchiness, I've actually gotten a few important things done this week. I finally paid Siobhan for the skirt I was hoping to get from her back in August. I'm almost done with some important paperwork I needed to send in to Fight Directors Canada for my apprenticeship. I finally got back to the gym last night. Little things eventually add up. Next stop, my 7 goals for this detox!
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